I’m just tired of all of these shit..

I don’t know until when my tolerance can last.. By Jove, I wanna win the lottery and just lay back, have time for the gym and party till death claims my body.. But that is reaching for the stars.. So a better workplace with a better pay with lesser stress would do for now.. Who knows, with the proper funds, I might start my own business even..

Yeah, but for now, I need a serious career move.. sigh..

I mean seriously? I don’t know if I’ll laugh or get annoyed.. 

sometimes, silence is enough..

delikadesa

I have a lot of things in my mind right now that I don’t want to express. I’m upset. I didn’t think I’d be this upset but yeah, suck on that. Maybe it’s just me. But nonetheless, I don’t want to dwell too much on it.. I’m getting off tumblr for a while to restrain myself from the temptation of saying something I might regret later.. 

kbye　

some friend.. psh　

So I haven’t smoked the whole day.. dunno until when can I keep this up.. gawd!!!! it’s so difficult, my mind is going erratic.. I need to tie myself down.. perspiring heavily.. I get hot headed.. Annoyed easily.. I’m having the beginnings of withdrawal syndrome.. I think.. The fuck.. How can I even think of thinking what’s happening in my mind.. oh shit.. I need to bite down on something or else Imma scream..

fock, i forgot to take a photo of the box of cream puffs given to me by one of my students.. 

bless Dulcinea for simply existing..

I don’t like to be played around. I am upfront as it is. I might not say anything, but I try to make you feel it. I just don’t understand why you need to do this. There’s too much drama already in my life specially in the recent events. I have just gone from an emotional roller coaster. If it is too much to ask, consider what I’ve just gone through. You rant as if I’m toying with you. I explained myself for those times that I was busy. If you don’t believe them then fine, everyone is entitled to believe what they want to believe. But to actually say “ahh, valid reason” I mean WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK is that? Then you say phrases that has double meanings and are accusatory in nature. You think I’m that shallow? Fine. Then I’ll just be like that. The problem with people is, every time you say a lie, people will accept that as the truth.. But tell the truth and people will be suspicious and call you a liar.. I don’t know what you’re playing at. It’s getting annoying already. As much as possible I try to be transparent. I try to be as patient as I can. But it just got to the point that my tolerance for such drama is reaching it’s boundaries. IDK, I just wanna sleep. I can’t deal with this right now. Good night.

At one point, the drama is just too dragging..

I feel nothing for you.. I thought I’d be hurt or feel happy cause after 5 months, we’ve finally talked.. but nothing..

it’s funny cause I feel like a robot trying to be nice and courteous talking to you without any tinge of anger.. but none.. like I have a flattened affect.. I should be mad or happy or something.. Yet I remain emotionless..

IDK if this is what you mean by moving on or I am just numb..

Yeah, tumblr is about expressing one self. But being responsible in the manner you deliver what you feel is a virtue that bloggers alike should incorporate. 

Just because you criticize other people doesn’t make you a critic. 

Using other people, and talking about them tells a lot about you. A gossip monger who is shallow and only looks on the outside.

So to those who’s tth was reblogged and hated by an anonymous blogger, chill. Laugh it off.. At least some coward who can’t post a picture of himself noticed you.

Don’t hate the people that hate you.. For when you do, you become just like them, pathetic, bitter, and unloved.

still at the office at 12:37am and I must be back by 7am..

dafuq izat?